S%!t happens...

Dwelling on the unchangeable is useless. However, I want to get this out one last time before I let it go for good. I'm mad! Someone violated the privacy of our home and decided to take what was not theirs. Our house was robbed yesterday. As soon as possible, we will be setting up a security/surveillance system in the house.

But its time to let the anger go and move on. This won't break us. It just goes to show that things may try to knock us down but we are stronger in the end.

Its time to look forward and leave the past...in the past.

New year...now what?

I never did get around to setting up counseling. But it is still on my mind. Everyday, I feel as though something is missing or not quite right in my life. But I'll save that for a later post.

Christmas and New Years went well. The joy on Cecily's face when she opened her gifts was...priceless. Although we don't have much money, I am so glad we were able to get Cecily her gifts...even if we did wait for hours in the cold on Thanksgiving night as well as Black Friday. It was all so very worth it.

We are in a new year now. I keep thinking about how this should have been the year I graduated from college. Having Cecily set me back until May of next year. But there's no time to think about the what-ifs. I plan to embrace this new year to the fullest! I have 3 semesters left of school and I want to kick butt and get my GPA up. I also have a new job that I feel is going to open opportunities for me. My goal this year is to focus. I've struggled with this and that is why my grades have suffered. I know I can do it all...I just need that push...that drive. I have it...it just gets lost from time to time.

Classes start in a week and I'm ready. I'm ready to take on a new semester and come out on top!

What's going on?

Is is normal to feel like the whole world is about to crash down on you? Probably not. But that's how I feel. I haven't made my couseling appointment yet, but I really need to.

I feel like I'm going through like just doing the motions. I'm lost inside and I need an escape. I'm overwhelmed with everything.

The only thing lighting up my days is going home at night to be with my Cecily poo.

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Counseling

As I sit outside waiting for my lunch break to be over, I've thought about a few things. I've decided to set up an apppintment here at school to get some kind of counseling. It's hard to talk to my family and Frank sometimes. I keep a lot of things bottled up inside and I think I'm just causing myself unnecessary stress. I don't have any major problems, just the normal day to day stressors...school, work, Cecily, Frank, family, myself in general. The only problem is, I can't tell anyone that I want to get counseling or they'll something serious is wrong with. I'm going to set up my appointment, then report back on how it went.

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5 weeks down, 12 more to go!

I'm talking about school. I'm in my fourth year of school, taking 5 classes and a lab. I've completed 5 weeks and have 12 more. I'm not feeling it though. I have no drive to pay attention. I know i need to focus and do my best but it's hard when my mind is in a hundred different places. I wish i could stay home all day long with Cecily.

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First Birthday Party

We planned and planned and we finally got through Cecily's first birthday party. When she was born, I thought I didn't want to make her a big party and that we would just celebrate with close family. However, as I watched her grow into this amazing person, I just knew we had to celebrate in a big way.

We made her party a carnival theme. We made games, rented a cotton candy machine, hired a clown and a face painter, and had prizes for the kids.

This past Saturday, September 25, was her party. We were running a bit late in getting to the recreation center we had a reserved a room in. People arrived before we even had everything ready. But luckily they did show up, because they were a big help. The party started at 1:30 in the afternoon and the majority of people were gone by around 5pm. And we were EXHAUSTED by the end of it all. The kids had a great time though. Lots of smiles and laughter throughout the entire thing.

I am so grateful to be surrounded by such wonderful friends and family that came out to celebrate Cecily's first year of life with us. She got so many presents. Lots of clothes and toys.

I'm already thinking of what we can do for next year...

Introduction

I have been wanting to start a blog but I never felt like I had anything important to say. I can't write the beautiful words I have seen other people blog with. But I've decided to capture my story in writing. It feels good to get things down on "paper" and maybe one day I will have some beautiful words to express.

It seems appropriate to me to start off with an introduction of myself. Whether I have 1 or 2o or 100 people read what I have to say, it would be best for people to get to know the person behind the stories.

My name is Elizabeth. I was born and raised in Dallas, TX. I grew up in a very loving family. While we didn't always have the things we wanted, my parents always provided the things we needed. I grew up with my two sisters, one a year older and the other two years younger than myself. We built an amazing bond that has served as a huge source of support and strength in my life.

My parents had my sisters and I at a young age. Well, actually my mother did. She was 17, 18, and 20 when we were born and my father was 25, 26, and 28.

We were raised being told that our education was the most important thing we could accomplish. The three of us have graduated high school and are in college. Upon graduation, I chose to move 4 and a half hours south to go to school in San Antonio. I loved it there. If I had the chance I would go back. But things didn't go "according to plan".

*Side story: I met Frank my senior year of high school. We have been together over three years now, it will be 4 years this coming January. He is the person who knows how to make the angriest and happiest in the same day. We are very opposite in many ways, yet so alike in others.

At the age of 19, I became pregnant with my daughter. From the day I found out I was pregnant, my life took a complete 180 degree turn. After completing my second year of school in San Antonio, I moved back to Dallas and transferred to the school my older sister is attending.

My daughter was born September 20, 2009. She was a tiny 5lbs 15oz. I fell in love. From the day we brought her home from the hospital until she was 6 months, the three of us (Frank, Cecily, and myself) lived in my parent's house. This past April, we moved into our own home and have been taking things day by day and doing the best we can to provide everything for Cecily.

I go to school full-time and work part-time while Frank works full-time at night. We struggle but we have the support of two wonderful families.

So there is the short version of my story. As time progresses, I hope to be able to unveil the different aspects of my life that take up a story in themselves. This blog is meant to tell the story of my life with Cecily and Frank, but some things can not be understood unless a little background history is known first.

So until next time,
God bless and farewell...